Another typical day filled with familial duties, mothering, and a full day of work.
I had just finished adding to Miles' lunch for the next day in one of our quiet rooms at work. Instead of packing up and rushing back to my desk like I usually do I found myself just sitting there. In a lime green mod version of an easy chair. Fixed. Unhurried.
My eyes were heavy with sleep, my mind was edging out thoughts as it settled into a much needed silence. No talking, no thinking, no planning, no multi-tasking. No moving, no working, no blogging. No caretaking, no cleaning, no strategizing. No what next? Just. a. moment. of. silence.
Five minutes passed. I began to move again, to think again. I could feel the moment of now, the disconnectedness from past and future simply fading, f a d i n g a w a y. And I was once again an orbiting planet, thinking of only the path ahead of me.
I realized at that moment how busy my life, our lives, really are. I can't remember the last time that my body and mind were at rest. Like most mothers, I am in constant motion, mentally or physically, always doing work, always thinking of what needs to be done. And this five minute hiatus from all that is wonderful, horrible, busy, challenging, delightful, and unexpected in our lives was truly a moment of release for me.
Five lovely minutes of stillness.
3 comments:
When are you going to write a book? I'll be first in line to buy it.
You are such a talented writer - you hit a great point here. Thanks for sharing.
Sweetheart, you have captured the essence of "time" in the life of a busy mother. We all need to take those 5 minutes more often.
Mom
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