to create

cre^ate, cre^ates, cre^ating

1) to cause to exist; bring into being

2) to give rise to; produce

i have strong germanic tendencies to finish things, to complete them, to have closure, to check off a task from my to-do list. lately, i find myself perusing the spaces where i normally would not dwell - the process, the uncertainty, the untended, finding an unfamiliar comfort here. i'm dabbling in the creativity of my thoughts, feeling especially like i need to express, to create, to produce. is this the result of being a mama? is this the world of mommyhood? where energy goes to existence, to being, to exploring? where the unfinished is glamorous with its scraggly edges and where messiness speaks to a life lived rather than a life planned. here's to creativity of the body - birthing a baby boy, and to creativity of the mind - raising that baby boy.